I actively seek to have an IRL outlook on life

And you clearly don't. But you refuse to see that because you refuse to acknowledge anything but your own self-sabotaging beliefs.

I understand very well what the online socialist left tries to do

And you clearly don't. Again, you refuse to see that because you refuse to acknowledge anything but your own self-sabotaging beliefs.

so I am not that worried.

Yet here you are, still, either seeking validation or indulging some sort of martyr complex.