Yeah, it's an anxiety / self-esteem thing I suspect. I'm working with medical outside of work, but I'm in a country with poor healthcare support and basically nil mental health support so we'll see how that goes. I already have a significant amount of medical debt from going to the doctor for a stress-related vision loss.. medical debt which I just ignore because I felt that a ten-thousand dollar bill for seeking medical help and getting tests was stupid so I refuse to pay or interact with the debt-collectors. For the record, the outcome of this 10k bill was, "Idk, doesn't make sense, you're discharged after we monitor you overnight."

Anyway, healthcare tangent aside, I am too hard on myself. Meditation is the main thing I've found that helps.

Your thoughts definitely help, new perspectives are invaluable. I just have my one.