I'm truly saddened by your story, but thank you for sharing it. And unfortunately the stigma and shame that comes with things like ADHD can be overwhelming. It is easy to go down the rabbit hole of "if only I could be normal..", or "what would my life be like if I didn't have ADHD..." and quickly lead to depression and more guilt.

The rate of death by suicide is alarmingly high among neurodivergent individuals, which is a real issue needing more attention. We need to work to demolish the stigma of these diagnoses, and make it a world where people can feel comfortable asking for help.

Ok this has brought me down, so I'm done in this thread for a bit, maybe I'll check back later.