I need to spend that much for basics, like food and a roof over my head. I'm basically a slave, I need to work most of my life without being able to build up anything. No saving, buying a house, etc.

But I'm aware I live in one of the wealthiest countries, where I do not have to fear anything no matter where I go. I'm aware I'm extremely lucky to have been born here. I've seen how life can be different, when I went on deployment to the Middle East and Africa. I've been to horrible places and have seen horrible things.

But life here is extremely expensive. We make more money, but in the end we have nothing left after we payed all the bills to keep a roof over our heads and food on the table. I don't have much to lose, as I'm depressed AF, alone as my wife left me, stuck with PTSD from when I was in the military, unable to enjoy life anymore somehow. So a holiday in Mexico where I snort loads of cocain with a bunch of hookers before I get robbed and killed doesn't sound so bad really.