Oh I know all about procrastination! To me it's just a symptom of mental health issues, but there can of course be many other reasons or factors.

The guy mentions making an app. As a coder who likes coding, I wonder why he wants to do that. Like, it's completely bonkers to write an app if you don't enjoy coding. It just sounds like he is absolutely terrible at figuring out what fits with him and what doesn't.

Like making an app isn't about breaking it down into bricks. That's just planning. It really comes down to motivation and properly managing that.

I think it's totally natural to circle around your goal, kinda like an eagle. The thing is when you are depressed or sum you just sit in your nest, waiting to heal, or for someone to come over and help. Which unfortunately doesn't always work in our modern society.

And his description of some kind of normal person just bothers me. I have heard only of 1 person in my circles who is like that guy without monkey. He is an autist and I am sure he loves having a rigorous plan every day simply because it gives him predictability. Like he'll literally be able to tell you what he'll be doing next week Tuesday at 14. He's world class in his field but my god I would never want to live like that.

Personally I think people should stop beating themselves up so much. If you treat yourself like shit the world will happily step in and take as much as it can.

Instead you should find out what your strengths are and what motivates you, and then leverage that on the market. So if you're just being yourself and you end up in the Linux command line and eventually write a small app, then that can slowly grow and once you have 10 years of experience you can decide to go for building the big one. Any other approach is just futile and a waste of perfectly good energy.