I'm sorry about your dad. I lost mine too early also and am tempted to find comfort in what you say but it still rings hollow to me. I think my father would have chosen the protracted death. Also, if god has any power, why not heal our dads instead of killing them quickly? In the end it seems I'm just trying to make myself feel better when in reality, there is no justice in a great many things in this world, our fathers death's included.