Much better than the pervious couple weeks. It's refreshing! Depression sucks.

On Tuesday I had a panic attack when I got in to work at 9am. It didn't last long, only about 15-20 minutes, but I still don't feel quite right even now. That's usually the case with my panic attacks, it takes a while for me to reset afterwards. Sometimes weeks.

Right now I have this tense feeling in my head, which causes my jaw to tighten up and get an impulsive twitch. Usually seems to happen when I'm feeling anxiety. I have an urge to chew on something soft.

Excited to go buy a bunch of native plants for the local park :)

I feel terrible because I didn't buy even a card for my wife's birthday. I just took her to her mother's house. This was two weeks ago. I am still baffled why I didn't buy flowers or something. My wife isn't demanding at all.

I currently feel like my nervous system is vibrating having just got out of the gym after preworkout

Bored. I'm out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking.. Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.

It's sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It's almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what's left are only the most basic of human functions. It's days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.

Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you're well!

It's the fifth cold I got in a row I feel angry

Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.

Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.

We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.

Currently very silly, im wearing a cute skirt :3

Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I've lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.

Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).

So excited and so overwhelmed.

We're moving from the US to Denmark soon. We just had a hurricane destroy our city. We are fine, thankfully, but our city is in bad shape. I also just had a decently big surgery a few weeks ago and my doctor's office is gone, so in the midst of all this I have to find a doctor. Just coincidental timing on all of it.

But it's net positive. I look forward to the future more than I dread the bad stuff.

Usually with my fingers, or at least generally with my skin.

Like my life has been stolen from me. I am left with nothing.

Isn't having cancer alone bad enough?

i just want to fucking die die die die die die die die die die die FUCKING DIE ALREADYYYYHSHSUDJEJJSJDKF

constantly tired

Like I'm on autopilot. Always tired and insomniac.

Doin alright. Tired from the work week, happy for the weekend!

exhausted. physically and mentally. even if i manage to disconnect its never for long enough to recouperate fully

Doing great! 😃 Currently sitting at my desk eating chocolate... 🍫

Since the last bout with COVID and subsequent bronchitis, I'm always exhausted and my lungs seem to hate me. It's slowly improving by the day but that's the worst bout of COVID I've had.

Fully vaxxed, other than the recent one for obvious reason

Alright I guess.

With my hands silly.

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