Average week except for blood test results. The doc said I start taking care of my health now, or risk heart attack at 40 among other health complications. I need to do some more tests and see other specialities... start taking caring of stuff I haven't for years.

I really need to move my ass. Both figuratively and literally.

My partner got infected with covid on vacation and now I have it too, so the weekend isn't going to be as fun as I had planned :(. Other than that the week was pretty good tho!

Ended a brief romantic relationship. Had a lot of fun, but it wasn't tenable for many reasons, and had already stayed in it too long. Went smoothly but my ex is now acting as if nothing has changed. Retaining a friendship would be nice, though I cannot be close with this person, but will have to be actively distant if it turns out that they're hoping we're actually still a thing.

Otherwise bruised all over & aching joints from trying to change the battery of a smoke detector on a very high ceiling in a very tiny bedroom. No, I didn't fall from a height (or at all) just shoving furniture & ladders around. In the end had to hire someone to come and do it for me, as just don't have sufficient core & hand strength to balance & stretch high with both hands. Inability to do something so basic has me feeling very vulnerable about the future... taking up pilates or whatever would help build strength, and this feeling ought to be motivating, but paralysed with despondence instead.

Eh, not bad I guess. I'm laid off for a few days (can't pave in the rain) so I'll have to collect a week of unemployment, but on the other hand it gives me time to get some things done around the apartment and see some friends that live nearby.
Other than that, trying to play Armored Core VI without getting frustrated with the difficulty, and eagerly awaiting Starfield's early release on Labor Day weekend.

Aaaaaa. I started Estradiol Valerate injections Wednesday and I'm every emotion at once. My first time giving myself a dose went better than anticipated, being terrified of needles and such. Scared for the future, if I can financially maintain the cost of the medication and if the fascist state government here leaves medicare coverage for my needs alone. I'm also debating whether or not to give up writing for some time. I'm not very productive due to depression and brain fog. Idk.

Hope everyone gets through the week safe and sound.

It's been a slog with the weather being 105+F outside and 90-95F inside where I have to work. But it's over now. Got a weekend to rest and hide inside playing video games. I feel sorry for my neglected garden but it's been so hot I just can't give it the attention it needs.

I'm slightly annoyed at my kid's new school. My kid is getting ready for school in a Chinese immersion program, which is great, but the new school wants to gently ramp up with half days with parent participation, with only part of the class signed up for specific half-day blocks. This is annoying because parents, you know, have jobs to go to, and taking 3 hours in the middle of the workday to get the kid to school, stay with them for a half day, and bring them home early is pretty inconvenient. Plus the days my kid isn't participating (with other half classes signed up), I've gotta get childcare coverage.

Can't wait until we get to the normal 8:30am start time with regular after school care.

i had my first dog/house sitting gig last weekend. also went to the annual soap box car race which is always a blast. had a slow start to this week, but then did a small/quick group bike ride with the meetup i run. just now heading out to meet with another dog/house sitting client for a future stay, then probably hanging out somewhere downtown.

oh! and the foster dog has his specialist consult on monday, which i'm really happy about. i love fostering, but i honestly didn't expect him to stay this long, haha.

It's been a good week! My work schedule was adjusted to be a bit less crazy for me, and something I can handle a bit more - which I am certainly grateful for (we're a small team, so schedule changes impacts everyone otherwise I would've requested it a while ago). Additionally, my new medication for my mental health seems to be having some positive impact - its also causing a few side effects but I'll bring those up at my next appointment, and I'm sure we can make adjustments to curtail those a bit.

Finally, I saw my hematologist the other day, and my iron levels are finally in the green thankfully! At the beginning of the year, after having a check up with my doctor they ran their standard labs - I got a call the next day from him saying that I needed to immediately go to the ER for an emergency transfusion (my iron levels were so low, that standing up for even 10 minutes would cause me to be on the verge of fainting), so I'm definitely happy to hit that milestone, now it'll just be a matter of maintaining it.

So all around improvements around my work life, my mental health, and my physical health - its been a long time since I had such major wins under my belt so its a strange feeling. In a way, I'm still waiting for "the other shoe to drop" because that is how its been in the past. I'm hopeful though, and even that is something I'll gladly take! There are still plenty of things to work on, but that will always be the case, so I'm patting myself on the back this weekend and will be trying to relax a bit.

I forgot about this thread because of how busy the week has been. It feels like this week has been a month. I had to guide eight new students around campus while keeping up with the new changes in a tight schedule. They were a chaotic bunch, but fortunately pretty responsible. I felt sorry for some others because their mentees were troublemakers or just dramatic.

I'm never doing this again lol. It's a nice experience to have once, but I don't like how I get a random group of people that are possibly good or bad. Yesterday I was recuperating from the madness. Today, I think I'll need to face some issues I put aside for this job. But man, I'm so sleepy.

It's finally going to be cooler in my area this week, and it's going to rain! I can finally study at my schools library without sweating like a pig and getting sunscreen in my eyes because of it.

Bonkers. Had to take a sick day to take care of my mental health

Meh. Could be better, but it's not all that terrible.

Tired as usual, but that's normal and not going to change, so it's not super relevant anymore.

Women's World Cup was a welcome distraction, but now I have to find something else that I can occupy myself with. Maybe I should just watch the NWSL. I just find American accents weird when it comes to football commentary.

Most of the other leagues only kick off sometime next month. Difficult to find official streams/broadcasters where I live, but I've at least found some (kind of surprised that NWSL is just straight up free on the official site for everyone living outside the US and Canada).

Not interested in video games. Maybe when Starfield's out I'll have something to do in that medium, but nothing right now is grabbing me and I'm honestly bored of gaming in general.

Fighting, and losing, against a breakdown at 5AM. I am so tired. Tired of being alone. Of pretending to be happy hoping it sticks. Of feeling useless. Of being unable to leave the apartment. Just of fucking everything.

Time for another 3 hours of sleep before I wake up screaming from another nightmare.

I dunno how much longer I can fucking do this.

#Check in with your fucking friends.

The week was ok. It was a good 3 outa 5.

I'm working on my next video ideas. I've got a couple floating around. It's been fun. Just trying to keep my momentum going.

It's rough, but I think it's a good week. Cleaning up my kitchen and dining room after a lengthy and messy renovation. So close to the point where they are back to normal, and just need to do a little more this week to reach that sweet feeling of normalcy.