I’ve been gifted the garlic dip.

Win win!

I hope don't jinx myself with this.

This morning I had more little meetings voicing my concerns and problems and my mental state and initially they decided that they'd assign extra staff to aid me at the end of the day,

It's now been decided that the problem I've been having at work has escalated enough now after a serious meeting today that the person will not be able to use the service that I look after and therefore will not be interacting with me at the end of the day.

If that is true and holds true for the rest of the work year I'm really relieved finally, it may not stop everything but it will certainly mean I don't end the day feeling super crappy and stressed about everything.

One thing at a time but at least that's a load taken off me from a work perspective.

Edit: And thank you everyone here for your support and warm words of encouragement.

I have a problem with overthinking about things and events that occur or may occur as a result of something.

It's definitely one of the things that gives me a great amount of stress and anxiety.

I keep thinking about things and the possibilities and sometimes bad or unpleasant things that happen stay in my mind for quite awhile.

I don't quite know how to handle those feelings and what I should do.

It's been suggested that I just move past things and forget, or distract myself to take my mind off of things or I be more stubborn about my own feelings and harden up?

There's been other things, like for example I followed all the steps and did things as soon as I realised or possible and I still get blamed for not doing it soon enough and copped some barbed words, I know it wasn't my fault but still it bothers me. (That was what I was stressing about)

There's possibly more to come in the future as the problem hasn't come close to be resolved and I hope I don't keep thinking about what might happen.

Apologies for the rant.

Lots of tears flowing here at work today.

Thankfully not mine but it's going to be a long day today.

I hate Mondays.

I think I’m angry right now.

Why do I always have to be the one to compromise on things when I’ve done everything correctly and on time.

Also fuck being connected to work even on a weekend.

Of thank F…!

Commbank finally reversed the duplicate transaction that put my account into the negative by a large margin.

Spent the whole day stressing about it. I hope that’s the end of the ordeal and nothing else happens.

Might actually think about getting a 2nd bank account somewhere else just as a backup sometime.

Now I finally concentrate on doing other things other than worrying about things.

I’m back with pizza!

Looks like pineapple and some green capsicum and something leafy.

Cooked some chicken nuggets for dinner. Simple stuff tonight.

Almost went for some dim sims. Maybe that’s tomorrow.

After 40 years she gets her own story for the first time.

I am currently taking my break away in another team’s work room since I seemingly cant take breaks at my own desk.

Been gifted a Lindt chocolate ball by a kind resident team member.

Shame though that I’ll only have my phone to enter myself but better than nothing.

Going to try and chill quietly and alone today with my coffee.

Things could be tense for awhile since the altercation this morning that I had with my co worker.

I’m sitting in front of this now. I can’t seem to get up.

God help me.

The incoming rain looks awful.

Pray for me.