I quit drinking been clean for a year and a half, I just turned 31, at this age the hangovers are just too overwhelming for me to tough them out anymore. And quite honestly after completely quitting and seeing the upside I highly recommend to all my fellow comrades here.

Now I am no saint, I love weed and psychedelics but after extensive research I find those to be a lot more better for me recreationally and yes therapeutically. But to each their own.

I wish I never drank honestly I threw away my 20s, wasted time, destroyed the only long term relationship I ever had, and it was a gateway to harder drugs like cocaine. Which was the first thing I quit after battling a crazy addiction to it. Scarface level shit.

What truly terrifies me is now that I've quit my once close family members would rather feel something is wrong with me for not drinking and preferring psychedelics over alcohol. Even when they say out loud that they support me their actions say otherwise.

If anyone is trying to quit drink my DMs are open to share my experience

I want to give and be given forehead kisses

Don't you ever ever ever ever ever say some negative things like that again

That problem is, it's not up to us when to build these rails and where.

The states need their car registration $$$

I'd fuckin do it again (goofy voice)

I hate that there's an app for everything, it's like when everything wanted your fuckin email now they want an app plus your email and a phone number, I have having to download POS apps on my phone for simple things that can be done from a browser, like concert tickets.

This one wins

I had a stink bomb, I had been a bit of a knucklehead and was kicked out from one high school to another.

When I got to my new high school they forced me too join JROTC because "PE was suddenly full". They just thought I was trouble...

Anyways, I took a really foul stink bomb that comes in this like glass container that you have to throw on the ground to crack open and stink up an area.

(This was Bush era and I was very anti bush and influenced by 2pac, I didn't wanna prance around roleplaying in a white man's army youth camp)

Well I was really mad they were making me wear those dorky outfits and I didn't wanna wear it that day, so I popped multiple packs of stink bombs into the JROTC classroom. I had some spot on baseball ⚾ aim because I threw 3 of em, from a good distance and they hit the $ spot right on the JROTC instructors podium under the BUSH portrait he made us to the pledge of allegiance towards, the US flag was next to the portrait. I threw it right before the class bell, and went to the bathroom. When I came back, lol everyone had evacuated the classroom it was unbearablem I played stupid asking what happened. Lol my fuckin squad leader whatever TF his rank was, told me that someone threw some stink bombs into class and that it would take place outside.

I'm very proud of that moment looking back. Oh and it was unexpected because I bought them and put them into my backpack from a swap meet trip earlier that week and I forgot to remove them at home.

One of the dorks from my JROTC class is the neighborhood LAPD pig where I live now not far from that High school, he remembered me and how I was trouble when he came to tell me to keep it down last year, when I threw a party.

CW: self harm, addiction, SA . . . . .

Ok I'm going to tell you what not to do based on my huge errors

I was dumped by my ex of 6 years on our anniversary and she ran off with someone else. I deserved it, I was an excessive alcoholic coke dealing addict.

Now when I was dumped I knew it was well deserved given what I mentioned. And well I went on a bender, i got black out drunk constantly including blowing massive amounts of coke, real Scarface moment. And well eventually that same week, i was roofied and sexually assaulted by a white woman.

I was going to off myself after that, by driving off a cliff. but I called a suicide hotline and was referred to therapy which I'm still doing today. That was 2018. I was 27 then.

I've recovered a lot, I quit coke later that year, gave up that hustle. And today I've turned most of my life around, I quit drinking alcohol last year.

If I could do it again I would tell myself to sit and process with the emotions of that bombshell that being dumped was... Unfortunately I ran to places to numb myself more and got very hurt. No one deserves to be sexually assaulted, but it's something I had to really process, because if I had handled things better I wouldn't have gone to a bar... I would have gone straight to therapy. So if you have the means I highly recommend it. I'm 31 now, live on my own and do my best to constantly work on myself mentally, if it wasn't for therapy I would have never been aware of my ADHD diagnosis a year into the therapy sessions.

If you need advice I know what it's like to go through this stuff at our age, my DMs are open for you.

I believe in soul mates I'm a spiritual person, but each day you hang in there I promise you get stronger just don't dive into any hedonistic &/or escapist behavior. Trust me

Edit: Working out is also I started doing immediately, it helps clear the mind.

Big Mouth

This is breaking my heart more

This breaks my heart