[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 3 points 8 months ago

Safety absolutely plays a role there, there have been instances where I've made brief contact with my abusers and it causes hardcore instability, but that's to be expected in those kinds of scenarios. But otherwise knowing that I'm a safe distance away from them helps so much.

I'm very proud of being able to stay there, especially since I get to live with people i know genuinely care about me and contribute to the healing process.

Work definitely gets affected by it though, I don't have that feeling of safety at my work unfortunately (am publicly trans in a pretty transphobic community) so that stress definitely gets me to fall back into the same feelings and coping mechanism from my previous situation.

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 6 points 8 months ago

CPTSD is also something i struggle with due to a traumatic childhood, but for the most part I'm out of that situation.

Knowing that what's done is done really helps, it's in the past and I'm safe now (at least relatively).

I'm still living in the same house i was abused in but my abusers are gone, so being able to reclaim that space and objectively acknowledge that I've progressed as a person helps put distance between what happened and what is happening.

Also learning to recognize that the way i was treated affected how i treat myself, and catching when i start letting the internal voice of those people dictate my life. Knowing what is genuinely your thoughts and feelings and the ones that aren't is extremely helpful, though very difficult.

Getting better is hard and neverending, but it lets you appreciate what little good you do have going on.

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 9 points 10 months ago

the article states that they were using version 3.5 during the study, I'd assume it would be patched in later iterations

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 6 points 10 months ago

Plot twist, it's foreshadowing

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 3 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I probably contribute like half the hours Fallout 4 is getting, once you go through the pain of getting modding working how you want, it's so easy to sink another hundred or so hours into it.

Lil Steamie Decky is hauling ass with 200 plugins just fine (assuming you don't mind cranking everything to low settings, but you won't notice it much on that display)

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago

I'd also like to know, some I'm having issues with my Bluetooth headset cutting in and out in Linux, but has no issues when I boot into windows

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 25 points 1 year ago

Yup, that.

Don't get me wrong, I love me some Bethesda games, but only 5 years after they've come out and with a 200 plugin modlist.

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 58 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Funny how on the consumer side, they keep pushing TPMs and other intrusive technologies under the guise of security, and they can't even keep their shit together on the business end long enough for people to actually believe them.

Edit: Typo

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 23 points 1 year ago

The worst part is, at least from my experience, even if you avoid the glaring issues with their rationale, even if you try and appeal to their empathy and assert you are a human fucking being that just has different experiences than they do, people will still treat you like subhuman scum. I've even had people get hostile with me for committing the crime of being nice to them whilst trans.

Maybe it's cause I work in a grocery store in a conservative city, but it's so hard to not have a cynical outlook from all the people lashing out at me just cause I'm a girl who used to be a boy. Like, I'm literally pouring my heart and soul out and being as kind as I can, but these people are too busy being as vile as they can possibly be to recognize any semblance of logical or emotional reason.

Why do we have to fight so fucking hard just to exist? What did we do to deserve this? When can I just exist in fucking peace?

[-] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 3 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I knew a kid in the 8th grade who, after the poor science teacher spent about an hour lecturing us on lab safety, immediately ate a bit of Borax we were using for the experiment.

Good to know he was a trendsetter I guess

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