Oh noes ... Came home a bit early so I could regroup and finish off the years tasks quietly. 20 min nap on couch became 2 hour DEEEP sleep with random nightmares and now my neck is cricked and I am discombobulated.

Yep. That was 2024 in a nutshell

This is it. One more day between me and holiday (except for whatever little bits I will inevitably need to finish off in the morning.

Yyyeeeeaaaah...

An offering of this best boy I met on the street one day

Ladies and gentlemen, enbies, kitties and potats...I am going to clean up from dinner and go to bed. I don't even care how early it is. I am stuffed. Night all

Oh seagooon

We wish you would come back soon

But hope you are enjoying your vacation

Enforced by internet enshittification.

But come back soon....dear 'goon.

Little peace accords between species this morning. Someone hangs out a seed mix that's the neighbourhood buffet breakfast

I slipped and fell last night right on my bum and today my tailbone / sacrum is definitely bruised. Good excuse for a lazy day but I can't help wondering at what ages does one go from "fell over" to "had a fall".... 🧓

Thanks everyone for the support yesterday. Despite feeling it was impossible I called in sick today and have spent the day sleeping (proper sleep not depression hiding I think) and on the couch listening to gentle music and journalling. Cleaned the kitchen. Haven't eaten much but it's good food. Drinking lots of water. About to go wash my hair.

My brain is exponentially calmer now. I wouldn't say I am looking forward to work tomorrow but it's not making me cry. I needed to just....stop.

Hopefully this is the circuit breaker I needed 🤞

Tomorrow - early start, good food at regular times, decent bedtime.

Hugs. If you can roll yourself up somewhere in the sun I recommend it. You aren't alone in your feelings.

I read On The Beach a few years ago after the 2020 bushfires and at the start of COVID when I was feeling particularly hopeless. Basically its a classic about an impending nuclear winter - what happens when everyone find out they have six months to live. One of the side characters just carried on tending their little garden, planting out things that they would never harvest and in all probability would never grow. But it was her job - to tend her garden and she figured no-one knew any would be next so she might as well do this thing. She was totally at peace. I think about her a lot when I am in this headspace.

I can't concentrate today. A close friend was in a bike vs car (cars fault) yesterday. They are still in hospital but ok -multiple fractures and chest trauma but could have been much worse. I spent yesterday babysitting and helping out and I thought I was ok but I keep getting the shakes today. I feel silly. I need to concentrate but I keep thinking about it.

Hug your peeps my peeps.

Weird nightmare crew represent 🙌🏻🦠🧞‍♀️💍🩺💥