Did you have stellar self-sureness or problem-solving or resistance to peer-pressure or a todo list when you came back?

yes to all but the todo list. It's kind of like one of those isekai stories where the MC has fuzzy memories except for the really important ones.

I remember my wife. she enjoyed gardening. in-fact when I proposed to her we were in a public gardens late at night having a picnic. she worked there while we were in college as a horticulturalist. she said we had to sneak in, but her boss told me days before that it was ok. just no "funny business" 😁. couldn't tell you what the ring looked like, but that smile and kiss will live with me forever.

after I "woke up", my father was a bit intimidated by me. he told me years later in my twenties that I "made him feel uncomfortable" as a kid when he was trying to scold me or teach me to do something the "right way". I remember on several occasions he was just trying to be a father to me or assert his dominance over me. to which I would coldly stare into his eyes with disinterest until he stopped and left me alone.

sometimes I feel bad from taking that away from him. as a father myself it would be hard, but he wasn't that great of a father all the time, but who is.

having a double life didn't really make me more ambitious, but it did allow me to realize what's important and take it all in once in awhile. old men don't want power, money, or women. we just want another good day with those we love.