I'm sorry to put a dampener on everyones friday night, but I'm not coping right now. I feel like my life isn't getting better I feel like the last few years I've been in this near constant state of fight or flight. I just wish my life would finally settle down. the last few years every time I think it has, something happens to cause chaos again. I'm just exhausted and stressed out and I don't want to be here any more.

This ongoing situation at work has me horrifically anxious. I am so done with toxic workplaces and just wish i could find a chill job to settle down in and probably return to study. My last job ended up being very toxic and now this one. I'm feeling pretty hopeless and terrified my next job is also going to be toxic. Man I wish i had a time machine so I could just relive the years 2011 - 2017 over and over again. Those were happy years with a great job.