Made a thread for tomorrow! It's nice and early, because I am going to sleep. Goodnight all :)
Whoever said salmon sushi was the best, I wholeheartedly agree :)
I'm done with this uni course in two days. Kind of wild. Might get donuts from nearby to celebrate the end of a pretty miserable chapter :) and onto the next
I had the stupid idea of downloading Hinge as one of my Sunday Sleep Deprivation Mishaps. As soon as I downloaded it, a guy who I matched with two years ago on a different app sends me a rose.
Now this guy asked me on a date after talking for a while (not making that mistake again) and at first I said yes. But the next day, I said no and apologised. He tells me that I did him dirty, he's the most depressed he's been in five years, he was going to organise a beach date and buy me flowers, he couldn't celebrate his friend's exciting news when he saw my message, he told his family about me, yada yada yada. I thought I was bad but this was like a whole new level of desperation and I noped tf out immediately. Dude would also compare me to girls he was going out on dates with and telling me about his date fails. Put me on pedestal. It's not fair to anyone involved to put someone on a pedestal. I don't think it's something that people are really aware of sometimes, though.
Some people really need to be okay with being alone. I guess a relationship would be nice one day, but I love my peace :) and even though it seems like being on the apps could increase the chance, I'm just going to live my life. If it happens, nice. If it doesn't, then so be it.
If you chase butterflies, they'll fly away. If you build a nice garden, you might attract butterflies. If no butterflies, you will have built a beautiful garden for yourself. I'm building my garden :)
It's strange - why am I eager to help my friend clean her apartment but leave my own space a dump when a clean space helps me feel less cluttered mentally?
Today has been a day of rumination about the breakup and me telling myself I'm not good enough because he didn't think I was good enough (logically I know this is silly). As a result, I've really just made myself feel shitty. Using this as an accountability post to get off my butt and head to the shops to buy food for the meal prep I was meant to do, like yesterday.
Gratitude thread (not really feeling it today tbh but I guess this might help?)
I'm grateful for giving myself grace for royally fucking up at work that will cause a headache tomorrow (fuck the shape of 50 cent pieces for jamming the cash machine). It's not the end of the world.
I'm also grateful for the nice orchids I saw.
Gratitude thread!
My sister bought a little studio apartment, after being dejected because she missed out at an auction a couple of weeks ago. I'm happy for her :)
I also had a lot to do at work today, so the time went by quickly.
Gratitude time :)
I'm grateful for the meal prep I did yesterday, and also a sleep in.