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I had a terrible time trying to get to sleep last night (for the people who have already slept: Sunday night). I couldn't shut my mind down, and I kept having flashbacks to a few years ago, not long after I'd been moved to Melbourne. They weren't traumatic per se, but I felt EXACTLY the same as I was in the moment. The helplessness, terror, anxiety, dread, loneliness, panic
I don't know what brought it up but it was really shitty. I put on a YouTube video which is my usual approach to dealing with those thoughts (even though this was a lot more extreme than usual), and I stopped thinking about it, but I got really bad vertigo and dizziness and I think I was hallucinating. I could just about see blue lights swinging around even though I had my eyes closed and light off. Phone screen was off and upside down so it wasn't that, and there was no light in my room
Now I'm kind of feeling a little scared to sleep again. Well, not scared exactly, more so dreading it. The emotional response it all brought up was awful, and I don't want to have to deal with it again
WHO CAN IT BEEE NOOOW?